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I never thought I would truly experience what romance was like. I’ve always been assured in my asexuality, and I thought the same extended to my aromanticism, before discovering I was demi.

For y e a r s I’d found myself content at the thought of someone who’d always be single. Not in a bad way mind, just that it is what it is. I’d never been 'infatuated' with someone before, never dated someone before, never crushed o n a person before- fictional or otherwise.

Not until I’d met them at least.

I was able to discover so much of my self identity and who I truly was around them. Be vulnerable with them. Be open with them. Be able to send 500 page essays to them at 4 in the morning and not bat an eye about it around them.

It was such a slow and conflicting realization, to realize the way that I cared for them was at a much deeper level than I normally would with the friends that I love. What came normal to probably so many people in their tweens and through puberty, was just a foreign concept to everything that I was- everything that I thought I knew about me.

But I know the real me now more than ever bec a u s e of them, and through all our anxieties and overworries about ourselves or the world around us- I feel so safe with getting to share them with each other-

And I’m so glad that they said yes.~

One of our most mutually sentimental games with one another has been FFXIV. It was through a dumb screenshot of having my partner's main give a little smooch to mine on the cheek, that feelings and realizations between one another really started to fly.

We originally joked between each other of the idea of doing a gag wedding in game, just to get access to the cute mounts and items from doing so. Neither of us were prepared for just how much that ceremony would actually go meaning for us to do together.

I remember our actual confession to one another taking place while my partner had JUST gotten into a dungeon queue, and we both laugh in retrospect how much they were internally screaming not being able to respond back to me spilling a ton of feelings all over the floor hlKSJDF.

Since then I can’t count the amount of mushy pictures we've taken with each other, so I’m just gonna share MOOOOORE (most of which were taken b y my own partner they're a lovely in game photographer)

The one funny thing that'd started to come up overtime, was trying to figure out how exactly t o be mushy with one another in this game- given their personal blorbos were already a couple with each other. We'd tried making a few various goobers from scratch, as well as ones to pair with my own main

eventually we just drifted our mains into a poly couple hLKSJDFH.

But even still, we both sort of longed for the idea of characters that we designed outright for fanta. That we could be absolutely shameless in playing around with building a romantic relationship between them from the ground up

And we eventually landed on pink and purbl couple v5, cat edition.

Go figure the thing it took was trying to design characters NOT for that purpose, to finally have the pieces fall into place for them naturally fitting together and playing into both of our interests at the inth degree.

I am horrendously mushy about all of these beans, as well as this game, for always making me feel close with my partner regardless the distance~